What To Do

How does anyone understand an attack so bad you start to lose your mind. I guess since it isn't real and, it's just my brain. My family. My children, I am just supposed to stop thinking and, pretend that I am not hurt.  I am though. I am so hurt that I can't begin to understand what to do anymore. Each time I start to do what I need to to better myself and, my life, these people get worse. 

They are sick. Disgusting. Horrific. Cruel. Evil. Sadistic.

They belueve that because I can't always know who is doing this at any given moment, they are safe. 

I am a good person. A good woman. A good mother and, I am sick of dealing with all of this. Why cant they fuck off

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