I Am The Problem

I am sorry. I can't believe stronger. I am tired of feeling like this. I am sick of being told how all of this is my fault. How my mom doesn't care that they hurt me. How I wanted to be raped. How is my fault that they are hurting people because if I didn't love them they wouldn't be being hurt. All of the things that are happening are my fault. Everything is my fault. I should have been stronger than the people abusing me. Stronger than the abuse.

I am sorry that my children are being used to hurt me. If I had been a better mom thos wouldn't be happening

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