Fuck Being Alive

 FUCK BEING ALIVE. ALL PEOPLE WILL DO IS LIE TO ME AND HURT ME. 

I AM GOING INSANE. I CANT GET ANYONl TO TALK TO ME BECAUSE I AM NIT A FUCKING PERSON. ALL THIS TIME AND, I AM FINALLY DONE BRING HURT. 

NI IFY GIVES SHIT. John has abused me and, lied to me so badky I have no way left to believe in myself. I am so sick of being hurt and, there is nothing I can do except die 

I HAVE TO DIE. THERE ISN'T ANYONE I CAN TRUST. EACH TIME I DO THEY TELL ME HORRIBLE THINGS AND, I HAVE NO WAY TO FIGURE OUT WHAT IS REAL. 

JOHN IS A WORTHLESS LYING CUNT AND, HE FUCKS WITH MY HEAD SO BADLY THAT I HAVE NO HOPE LEFT ANYWAYS.

I HATE BEING ALIVE. NOTHING IN THE UNIVERSE IS WORTH BEING TREATED LIKE THIS. W

I WILL NEVER BE HURT AGAIN. I WILL NEVER BE LIED TO AGAIN. I WILL NEVER BELIEVE THAT ANYONE COULD EVER GIVE A SHIT ABOUT A THING LIKE ME.

1 AM GIVING UP. I CANT SURVIVE ANY LONGER. EVERYONE I LOVE HATES ME. I DONT UNDERSTAND WHAT I DID BUT, I AM GIVING UP. I CANT TAKE ANYMORE. 

NOT THAT ANYONE CARES. I BEGGED MY OWN MOTHER FOR HELP AND, GOT NOTHING LIES. 

I DONT WANT A FUCKING HUSBAND.I DONT UNDERSTAND WHY LOVING PEOPLE WAS SUCH A BAD THING. I DONT UNDERSTAND ANYTHING AND, I CANT TAKE ANYMORE. I CANT TAKE ANYMORE. 

I AM SORRY THAT I AM SO EAST TO HURT. SO EASY TO INSULT AND, SO EASY TO KIE TO. I AM SICK OF DEFENDING PEOPLE WANT ME TO DIE. I AM SICK IF BEING HURT. I AM DICK OF BEING LIED TO

JOHN BUTTERFIELD FINALLY KILLED ME. I LOVED HIM AND, HE HELPED PLAN ALL IF THIS. ACCORDING TO THESE PEOPLE THAT IS WHY HE LIED TI ME FRIOM THE DAT WE MET. ALL HE HAS EVER DONE IS LIE TO ME AND, EVERYONE HATES ME FOR THE THINGS HE HAS DONE. ALL GE HAS EVER DONE IS TEY TO KILL ME AND, ITR FINALLY WORKED. HE TELLS ME ALL KINDS OF TERRIBLE THINGS AND, I CANT TAKE ANYMORE. HE CLEARLY KNOWS WHAT THEY HAVE DONE TO ME, HE HELPED THEM.

I DONT WANT TO LIVE ANYMORE. I SHOULDN'T HAVE BELIEVED HE WAS GOING TO KILL HIMSELF LIKE HE ALWAYS TELLS ME. IT EAS JUST A OLIT TO GET BACK HERE TO HURT ME. NOW, I AM SO HURT AND, I FEEL AO UGLY AND, UNWANTED AND, EVERYONE HATES ME, I GIVE UP. EVERY FUCKING DAY I AM TOLD HOW HATED I AM, HOW EVERYBODY IS WALKING AWAY FROM ME. HOW JOHN IS SO WONDERFUL AND, HOW I AM THE PROBLEM. I AM DONE TRYING. DONE BELIEVING IN MYSELF. THERE WAS NO REASON TO KILL ME BUT, HE DID IT ANYWAYS. 

I HATE JOHN. HE DESTROYED MY LIFE AND, I CANT TAKE ANYMORE.

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