I No Longer Believe In Myself

There is nothing left in my life. I hate myself more than I can handle. I have lost everyone that I ever have a shit about. 

Making me hate my life somehow is how they get me off drugs. Telling me to kill myself and, terrorizing ke gets me off drugs. It was quite the plan. Just keep beating me down until I can't take anymore.

The world is a better place without me. My kids are better off without me. I only hurt people. I only cause pain. I will never believe anything good about me again. I will never be able to believe in myself or anyone else.

Congratulations, you saved the world from something like me!

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